Thursday, June 10, 2010

How Do You Get A Thought Out Of Your Mind?

I just caught a glimpse of a commercial on TV, about battery powered scooters for the handicapped. It showed a woman tooling around in her motorized chair. What was so disturbing about it, was how much she reminded me of my deceased twin, when her body and face was so distorted by the steroid drugs she was taking.

I thought I had handled my sister's death pretty well, and gotten over it, but apparently I haven't, and now all I want to do is cry. Janie, I miss you!

Love, from the sister you never knew you had.
Melissa XOXOX


VĂ©ronique said...

No matter how well you handle such a loss, you're still going to miss the person, probably forever. Some things still trigger remembrance of my dad, who died almost 30 years ago. And not just remembrance, but an emotional response. I can only imagine what losing a twin sister is like.

*Quiet hug*

Two Auntees said...

After my father had died, a friend sent me a note and compared grief to the ebb and flow of an ocean tide. I find that to be true. The tide usually comes in quietly, unobtrusively but then there is that wave that comes crashing on to shore and overwhelming you. I find grief to be like that. I think that most people assume that you grieve and at some point it is over. I do not find that to be true. I think it is normal to feel the overwhelming loss of a loved one from time to time. I was relieved to find that others felt the same way.

Naukishtae said...

Dear Sweet Melissa.. how I wish I could be there for you when you cry.. to hold you.. I thought only moments ago how much you resembled dear Jane.. it was the picture you posted this evening (6.19) and I came back to this note.. you will always miss her, how could you not.. You were the best of each other.. but now only you feel the pain, she has moved to where there is no more pain.. she is today the Jane of all of your memories, happy and without pain.. I doubt she loves you any less today than she did at any time in her llife.. she will always be with you and you will always be loved by each other..
I hate to hear the tears in your voice.. many hugs...